My life is incomplete without a bass guitar... argh. Going yamaha today at PS really stroked the flames of my desire(lol) to get a bass.

Really, I cannot stand it anymore. I want it right here right now!

Sabbatical week. Time for me to get back on track for my studies. Take a breather. And go jamming with the guys. Maybe on thursday, if they want to and I'll have shift weights to tuesday.

Been thinking alot these few days. About some stuff.

But I think I really can't afford to keep thinking and dreaming of what is five, ten years away from now. Have to focus on my life NOW. No point 'obsess-ing' about issues so far ahead.

Now Listening to: Metalingus
By: Alter Bridge

Feeling very moody right now. I don't know why. Don't feel like talking to anybody. Kept thinking about the conversations I had yesterday.

Is it too early to make decisions?
Is it really what I want?
Is it just part of an impossible dream?
Will I regret it years down the road when I look back?

Questions, Questions.

I need to stop thinking about it. Yet I cannot.

passion

I've been thinking... of where I will be ten years from now. Seems to me that I have no idea where I want to go from JC. What to study. What to prepare myself to work as.

Sciences? Blank. Humanities? Blank. Haven't made up my mind on anything at all.

However, today at Sentosa, I had a good talk with huiyi, huilin's elder sister, about studies... and then about ambitions. I said I have no interests in sciences and humanities, since my results in them are at best average.

Learnt from her that one shouldn't let his grades dictate what he does, what matters most is what he really wants. She mentioned Joshua, who quit his job after two years to teach drumming full-time, as he really hated the first job. So what if the income may not be steady? As long as he loves it, and is doing something the God is pleased with, God will provide for him.

I have that same feeling. I feel that I wanna study music. If my disappointment when I heard that I cannot study music next year in JC is any indication, I think it is clear that my passion lies in music. After the chat with huiyi and Joshua, I am all the more inclined to really give it a try. The only obstacle would be the need to sustain a livelihood of my family, since financial security may be an issue.

Its funny how when it was the first time I really sat down and talked to them, and yet I learnt so many things from them just from their life stories. yep.

Next stop, Berkley School of Music? I don't know. Really.

Will seek an answer.


"When you have passion in your job, you don't have to work anymore." - huiyi


Now Listening to: Smile like you mean it
By: The killers

1st of Jan and 1st of May. Two dates I will never forget. Haha.

Had a wonderful day. Church service was fun, because the speaker from another church gave an engaging sermon and really kept us interested about it, about missions. After that we discussed for about 20 mins(getting more and more like girls...) for our lunch arrangement. In the end we decided to eat at block 3 (again).

Went to the coffee connoisseur in Clark Quay. Slacked around for 4 hours with a cup of 5.90 latte mocha. Talked alot of cock and crap. Learnt many things and stuff I never knew about my brothers today, but will keep the information to myself... heh. All I can say is that it certainly brought us closer together =)

In the end went to eat swensens with the other brothers. Superb fish and chips, and baked rice. Was then treated to an Earthquake. woops.

Shagged now. Still have to go sentosa tomorrow. In about 9 hours time. woops.