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Thursday, September 29, 2005
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Friday, July 29, 2005
Life passes so quickly... Heard about guilan's passing away yesterday morning, and was really shocked. Couldn't really believe the sms that Jack sent me.
Guess that it osrt of woke me up to the vulnerabilities of man, how frail we are that we could be gone any moment, anywhere, and be taken back up, or for some, sent down.
She was very friendly, and always smiled whenever I saw her, it didn't occur to me that her life would be over so soon. It occured to nobody. It was more than a year a ago when she left, I guess, and she had been close friends with the youths. I could still remember her during the very first youth camp that I attended.
Somehow to me, nothing like this would happen to anyone that I knew; It had never been the case. But yesterday I received a wake up call. I couldn't imagine any of my friends go in such a sudden manner, and I was shocked...
Will I be ready to face God when he decides to bring me back?
Will I be able to answer to him if he does so five minutes later from the posting of this blog?
I really don't know.
Give me peace...
Guess that it osrt of woke me up to the vulnerabilities of man, how frail we are that we could be gone any moment, anywhere, and be taken back up, or for some, sent down.
She was very friendly, and always smiled whenever I saw her, it didn't occur to me that her life would be over so soon. It occured to nobody. It was more than a year a ago when she left, I guess, and she had been close friends with the youths. I could still remember her during the very first youth camp that I attended.
Somehow to me, nothing like this would happen to anyone that I knew; It had never been the case. But yesterday I received a wake up call. I couldn't imagine any of my friends go in such a sudden manner, and I was shocked...
Will I be ready to face God when he decides to bring me back?
Will I be able to answer to him if he does so five minutes later from the posting of this blog?
I really don't know.
Give me peace...
Tuesday, July 26, 2005
All geared up for one final stretch of MRP'ing, two solid hours should be enough.
Almost done anyway.
Mind boggling afternoon, MRP all the way.
What I'm more concerned about is finding the time to write a meaningful piece of an ariticle for Grad Night, due tomorrow. Really don't want to mess it up, leaving me to regret.
Wanna write more, but, maybe next time.
Almost done anyway.
Mind boggling afternoon, MRP all the way.
What I'm more concerned about is finding the time to write a meaningful piece of an ariticle for Grad Night, due tomorrow. Really don't want to mess it up, leaving me to regret.
Wanna write more, but, maybe next time.
Monday, July 25, 2005
Learnt alot over the weekend through my serving and throughout my activities in church. Serving was great all in all, except for some big mistakes nearing the end, however, I just treat it as a learning experience. Even though it really brought the worship to quite a low point.
I for one, learnt a new way to transpose songs, by playing the 4th, 5th and then 1st.
There's this unwritten rule that people don't criticise the worship team to me... people always go 'not bad lah' or 'okay lor', as if I don't already know that it was really a big cock-up. hahah. like some consolation. I know they just want to encourage us, but sometimes some constructive criticism could help. Appreciate my mentor's feedback yesterday.
Come on! Go ahead and criticise me! That's the only way I can learn faster.
Haven't been blogging for quite some time. Was very inspired by the professional kind of worship put up by our music ministries. Sometimes I feel like a little kid going 'wow' when watching them play. It's like all the 'tu2 di4' watching their masters play. Moses is there. Joshua is there. Pinjun is there. There's just so much dynamism, so much teamwork, so much little fills and attacks that make the music good. And what's important is that they all work for a common purpose, that is to bring our church worship to a new level. Which is something that we've always been trying to do.
I wonder when we, the youths, will reach their level, or even surpass them. I guess we'll be praying hard to be good worshippers/musicians, to bring ground-breaking worship to peopel. If that's God's will, I sure he will bring us there.
Even so, I believe I still need to do something to help god bring me there. So I'm devoting at least half an hour reading up on theory and practicing daily.
Its pretty obvious where my interests lay, and I think its really a 180 turn from where I was heading 9 months ago. And its for the better, so praise god!
Now Listening to: Times like these
By: Jack Johnson
I for one, learnt a new way to transpose songs, by playing the 4th, 5th and then 1st.
There's this unwritten rule that people don't criticise the worship team to me... people always go 'not bad lah' or 'okay lor', as if I don't already know that it was really a big cock-up. hahah. like some consolation. I know they just want to encourage us, but sometimes some constructive criticism could help. Appreciate my mentor's feedback yesterday.
Come on! Go ahead and criticise me! That's the only way I can learn faster.
Haven't been blogging for quite some time. Was very inspired by the professional kind of worship put up by our music ministries. Sometimes I feel like a little kid going 'wow' when watching them play. It's like all the 'tu2 di4' watching their masters play. Moses is there. Joshua is there. Pinjun is there. There's just so much dynamism, so much teamwork, so much little fills and attacks that make the music good. And what's important is that they all work for a common purpose, that is to bring our church worship to a new level. Which is something that we've always been trying to do.
I wonder when we, the youths, will reach their level, or even surpass them. I guess we'll be praying hard to be good worshippers/musicians, to bring ground-breaking worship to peopel. If that's God's will, I sure he will bring us there.
Even so, I believe I still need to do something to help god bring me there. So I'm devoting at least half an hour reading up on theory and practicing daily.
Its pretty obvious where my interests lay, and I think its really a 180 turn from where I was heading 9 months ago. And its for the better, so praise god!
Now Listening to: Times like these
By: Jack Johnson
Wednesday, July 13, 2005
It never turned out the way I wanted it to.
What a setback!
Did I put in my best? Yes!
I thought so much, trained so hard, but did my bout do me justice? No!
Thoughts began to surface in the toilet. Am I just not good enough?
Deep down, I knew I could win. I told myself. 12 more months. One more time.
Burn, fire, burn.
Even so, the feeling cannot be stopped, the flow cannot be stemmed, I just need to get over it.
What a setback!
Did I put in my best? Yes!
I thought so much, trained so hard, but did my bout do me justice? No!
Thoughts began to surface in the toilet. Am I just not good enough?
Deep down, I knew I could win. I told myself. 12 more months. One more time.
Burn, fire, burn.
Even so, the feeling cannot be stopped, the flow cannot be stemmed, I just need to get over it.
Tuesday, July 05, 2005
It has been 22 hours since my gastric condition occured. I've been in pain ever since, be it great or minute pain.
Thank God for that 1 hour, that I prayed he would take away the pain. And, surely, for that 1 hour of physics test I was fine. And then It came back.
Really cannot afford to get sick now. Lousy stomach.
Now Listening to: There is Nothing Like
By: Hillsong United
Thank God for that 1 hour, that I prayed he would take away the pain. And, surely, for that 1 hour of physics test I was fine. And then It came back.
Really cannot afford to get sick now. Lousy stomach.
Now Listening to: There is Nothing Like
By: Hillsong United
Monday, June 27, 2005
I love my bass woohoo!
Cant stop playing it, thinking about it, imagining myself playing it.
Some progress today, figured out about 80% of Soul to Squeeze by RHCP. Melodic and graceful. Hope to catch the rest of the song through tabs. So excited about my bass, which is unlike me. I'm really feeling the benefits of being able to practice everyday, hopefully I'll be as good as moses in about 20 years time! Yay!
But seriously, I think the practice really helps alot, so I will practice 30 mins everyday.
Anyway, great welcome back to the school, since we did a "gong han" on our first double chinese period on the first day of school! Surprise, Surprise! The other lessons were quite slack, which is good.
Did something quite stupid today, but alas I will put at the back of my head, and nobody will know. It gets dumber the more I think about it.
2 more days to individuals, time to show what I'm made of...
Now Listening to: Soul to squeeze
By: Red Hot Chilli Peppers
Cant stop playing it, thinking about it, imagining myself playing it.
Some progress today, figured out about 80% of Soul to Squeeze by RHCP. Melodic and graceful. Hope to catch the rest of the song through tabs. So excited about my bass, which is unlike me. I'm really feeling the benefits of being able to practice everyday, hopefully I'll be as good as moses in about 20 years time! Yay!
But seriously, I think the practice really helps alot, so I will practice 30 mins everyday.
Anyway, great welcome back to the school, since we did a "gong han" on our first double chinese period on the first day of school! Surprise, Surprise! The other lessons were quite slack, which is good.
Did something quite stupid today, but alas I will put at the back of my head, and nobody will know. It gets dumber the more I think about it.
2 more days to individuals, time to show what I'm made of...
Now Listening to: Soul to squeeze
By: Red Hot Chilli Peppers
Sunday, June 26, 2005
Arrr. I really messed my confirmation up... I think. Said things that I shouldn't have said. Ahh well, I guess it's going to be a permanent part of my painful memories... haha =) Embarassing moments are aplenty in one's life, and well, as long as I don't die from it i'm fine. Funny thing is that I'm not bothered by it, and the guys seem more concerned about it than me... hahaha.
Friday had its fair share of touching moments too, both during and after the entire ceremony. I'm glad that my sharing really touched many hearts, and I hope it was a great encouragement to those under the same type of problems. It was rather spontaneous, and some things that I had prepared to say just flew out of the window, leaving me to think on the spot. But it ended up fine anyhow, so praise the lord!
Ahh yes our judokas were there too. Great, great encouragement to me.
To sidetrack a little, my dad was playing arcade pinball on his desktop just now(with booming sound effects). Must be quite bored.
Friday had its fair share of touching moments too, both during and after the entire ceremony. I'm glad that my sharing really touched many hearts, and I hope it was a great encouragement to those under the same type of problems. It was rather spontaneous, and some things that I had prepared to say just flew out of the window, leaving me to think on the spot. But it ended up fine anyhow, so praise the lord!
Ahh yes our judokas were there too. Great, great encouragement to me.
To sidetrack a little, my dad was playing arcade pinball on his desktop just now(with booming sound effects). Must be quite bored.
Monday, June 20, 2005
Listened to a very powerful sermon today. The female pastor(?) talked about the power of the holy spirit, and what it can do to a person. Someone like me. She shared about how it has the power to totally change a person's life, and how when you feel it, you just know it is the spirit at work. Don't know why, but I really felt touched by her ending prayer, and its like a sudden gush of strong feelings that hit me in like 5 seconds, when 5 seconds before I was just listening passively. Never felt like that before. It had to be the Holy Spirit at work.
Suddenly, like what she said, I felt free. I felt like I lost control of myself, and just kept on praying and praying and praying. When we sang the song, I didn't really care about the rest anymore. When we clapped, I just clapped loudy. When we jumped, we really jumped.
Amazing. So much freedom, so much joy. Can't believe I did that.
Anyway.
My hair needs to grow longer. Too short to be cut, too long to look neat. Just right in the middle in terms of length, looking like a rambutan. All hail the rambutans in the judo club!
Now Listening to: All of My Days
By: Hillsong
Suddenly, like what she said, I felt free. I felt like I lost control of myself, and just kept on praying and praying and praying. When we sang the song, I didn't really care about the rest anymore. When we clapped, I just clapped loudy. When we jumped, we really jumped.
Amazing. So much freedom, so much joy. Can't believe I did that.
Anyway.
My hair needs to grow longer. Too short to be cut, too long to look neat. Just right in the middle in terms of length, looking like a rambutan. All hail the rambutans in the judo club!
Now Listening to: All of My Days
By: Hillsong
Monday, June 13, 2005
Camp
Though relatively short, it was the biggest, and most enjoyable camp that I have participated in. Could really see that the people were really engaged in the activities, including the new friends. It's really by God's grace that this BGR camp was such a success, looking back in Jan, where the response was really lukewarm at best. Saw that many of our teens have really grown, the 6 of our fellowship of the ring in the teens guys are all group ic's, taking care of the younger ones, and that's really great. The girls have also displayed great maturity in the things they do, I think it's something that nobody should take for granted. I think we should give thanks for their strong spiritual growth, that is inherent even in my sis, after only about what, 1 year in RYM?
Certainly learnt many new things, and clarified alot of my doubts.
I guess sometimes we tend to live by the standards set by the society, by our peers; what we should be doing and stuff like that. But the strong message that resonated in me is that we live not by the standards of others, but according to His standards. It may not be easy, but I think its the right thing to do. Those who attended the camp would agree.
The most satisfying part during the camp would be the group performance. Amazed by the... 'stunning' performances of some of our sisters. I never knew people like Shumin could be so... how do you put it... so menacing, to the point that it frightens me a little. Oh well, I guess the camp really unleashes the beast within us. Besides group performances that rocked, would be the overnight captains ball games. Played like 8-9 matches at least throughout the night. Surprisingly I didn't feel like a walking zombie at 5am in the morning, after 4 hours of captains ball.
Have to thank god that I grew up in renewal, or else I would have never been able to feel that sense of family warmth, that I experienced throughout the 3 days. It's hard to put in words.
Well, my head is still heavy. May write more later.
Now Listening to: You and me
By: Lifehouse
Certainly learnt many new things, and clarified alot of my doubts.
I guess sometimes we tend to live by the standards set by the society, by our peers; what we should be doing and stuff like that. But the strong message that resonated in me is that we live not by the standards of others, but according to His standards. It may not be easy, but I think its the right thing to do. Those who attended the camp would agree.
The most satisfying part during the camp would be the group performance. Amazed by the... 'stunning' performances of some of our sisters. I never knew people like Shumin could be so... how do you put it... so menacing, to the point that it frightens me a little. Oh well, I guess the camp really unleashes the beast within us. Besides group performances that rocked, would be the overnight captains ball games. Played like 8-9 matches at least throughout the night. Surprisingly I didn't feel like a walking zombie at 5am in the morning, after 4 hours of captains ball.
Have to thank god that I grew up in renewal, or else I would have never been able to feel that sense of family warmth, that I experienced throughout the 3 days. It's hard to put in words.
Well, my head is still heavy. May write more later.
Now Listening to: You and me
By: Lifehouse
Saturday, June 04, 2005
Arrh.
I just found out that the date of my confirmation clashes with the last day of my judo camp!!
But phew. Break camp at 5. Still some time to rush to my confirmation ceremony at 7 plus.
Whole family's going to be there. Signals the coming of age, the age where i'm sensible enough to make my own decisions. I'll be a man after June 24th... haha, sounds so cliche.
I think i'm ready to confirm my faith in Jesus Christ. I've never felt more definite that He is the one true God, the God in my life. Yep. So now is really a good time to confirm it, to tell everyone that He's the one I chose. Not what my parents, or relatives set out for me to believe.
Bought a Hillsong United cd today. Wanted to try out a different kind of worship music. Definitely something different from what I usually hear. Modern rock style. Maybe I'm too used to the adult Hillsong, Michael W Smith and the Don Moens type of music, the more traditional style, thats why I didn't really 'feel' the album as I did with the others. Well, so long as God likes it, I'm okay.
Now Listening to: Deeper
By: Hillsong United
I just found out that the date of my confirmation clashes with the last day of my judo camp!!
But phew. Break camp at 5. Still some time to rush to my confirmation ceremony at 7 plus.
Whole family's going to be there. Signals the coming of age, the age where i'm sensible enough to make my own decisions. I'll be a man after June 24th... haha, sounds so cliche.
I think i'm ready to confirm my faith in Jesus Christ. I've never felt more definite that He is the one true God, the God in my life. Yep. So now is really a good time to confirm it, to tell everyone that He's the one I chose. Not what my parents, or relatives set out for me to believe.
Bought a Hillsong United cd today. Wanted to try out a different kind of worship music. Definitely something different from what I usually hear. Modern rock style. Maybe I'm too used to the adult Hillsong, Michael W Smith and the Don Moens type of music, the more traditional style, thats why I didn't really 'feel' the album as I did with the others. Well, so long as God likes it, I'm okay.
Now Listening to: Deeper
By: Hillsong United
Thursday, June 02, 2005
Back from a judo camp, was really fun, as well as tough. In the sense that the training was really tough, and the meals and 'relac' times were really fun. One of the more 'conscious' camps that I've attended, unlike the others where everything blazes past me in a blur. Got to know my seniors more, and they're really a crazy batch of JCs students. There are bears, monkeys, dogs, rats, hippos, and giraffes. All shapes and sizes.
The first day was really tough, but luckily received lots of 'encouragement' from my friends that energized me to go on for another two.
I expect that the next one will be twice as tough.
Went shopping today, sort of. Took a bus to junction 8, sembawang music. Went looking for Steve Tyrile(sp) and/or Jack Johnson, but to no avail. Looks like I can't rely on sembawang for more exotic and different albums. But, still a good source for jay chous, 50 cents, mcflys and whatnot. Will probably look at HMV or somewhere else.
Its really a different feeling shopping alone. Freedom to go where I want, whenever I want. The feeling of being invisible walking through the crowds. Rocks.
Don't know what to do tomorrow. Nothing seems decided.
Now Listening to: Sweet silence
The first day was really tough, but luckily received lots of 'encouragement' from my friends that energized me to go on for another two.
I expect that the next one will be twice as tough.
Went shopping today, sort of. Took a bus to junction 8, sembawang music. Went looking for Steve Tyrile(sp) and/or Jack Johnson, but to no avail. Looks like I can't rely on sembawang for more exotic and different albums. But, still a good source for jay chous, 50 cents, mcflys and whatnot. Will probably look at HMV or somewhere else.
Its really a different feeling shopping alone. Freedom to go where I want, whenever I want. The feeling of being invisible walking through the crowds. Rocks.
Don't know what to do tomorrow. Nothing seems decided.
Now Listening to: Sweet silence
Sunday, May 29, 2005
Had a great time serving as a bassist in the adult service today. Wonderful feeling as I just shut my eyes and just flowed with the music, worshipping along. The first time I really 'let go' of myself when I serve, and it was really great. Closing my eyes, 'feeling' the music as I played.
What I did might not be perfect at all. I had doubts whether I was being too loud, too soft, too fast, too slow. In the eyes of man it may just be filled with imperfections, but in the eyes of the lord it is as good as it gets.
In the end all that matters is that I got closer to God throughout this experience.
Going for a 3-day judo camp from hell tomorrow.
I will survive!
Now Listening to: Never Know
By: Jack Johnson
What I did might not be perfect at all. I had doubts whether I was being too loud, too soft, too fast, too slow. In the eyes of man it may just be filled with imperfections, but in the eyes of the lord it is as good as it gets.
In the end all that matters is that I got closer to God throughout this experience.
Going for a 3-day judo camp from hell tomorrow.
I will survive!
Now Listening to: Never Know
By: Jack Johnson
Tuesday, May 24, 2005
Had a terrible night yesterday. Think I injured my left shoulder, and woke up to excruciating pain on my left shoulder and left back 1am in the morning. Took some panadol, but to no effect.
Kept awake due to the pain, and my mom also woke up. Luckily we have a hot water bag, and I applied it to my shoulder to try and allieviate the pain.
Prayed a silent prayer in desperation at that moment, that God would take away all the pain. And I think he heard my prayers as i was finally able to sleep at 4 plus 5am. Woke up at arnd 7, again from the pain.
Sinseh did some suction thingy on my back, says it's to improve recovery, kinda works. Going back to school tomorrow. Thanks, God.
Now my only hope is that it will not affect me during the camp. Cannot lag behind anymore.
Now Listening to: Next year, baby
By: Jamie Cullum
Kept awake due to the pain, and my mom also woke up. Luckily we have a hot water bag, and I applied it to my shoulder to try and allieviate the pain.
Prayed a silent prayer in desperation at that moment, that God would take away all the pain. And I think he heard my prayers as i was finally able to sleep at 4 plus 5am. Woke up at arnd 7, again from the pain.
Sinseh did some suction thingy on my back, says it's to improve recovery, kinda works. Going back to school tomorrow. Thanks, God.
Now my only hope is that it will not affect me during the camp. Cannot lag behind anymore.
Now Listening to: Next year, baby
By: Jamie Cullum
Monday, May 23, 2005
Sunday, May 22, 2005
Hurhur. Rise tomorrow, Lord Vader!
Had great fun today, playing bass and performing a skit for the sunday school. Really confirmed my love for the instrument. Gonna go ahead to get my yamaha rbx374, probably soon.
Also realised that getting a solid bass amp is much more important than getting a top end bass guitar itself. There is just so big a difference when using a good amp and a poor amp. My understanding is that a good amp can make an average bass sound good, but nothing will ever sound good on a lousy amp, which i think is pretty logical. Haha.
Love da tang's Roland, absolutely delicious to play with.
Flooded with priorities, Maths, Core, CL test. Arr.
Now Listening to: Let Me Go
By: 3 Doors Down
Had great fun today, playing bass and performing a skit for the sunday school. Really confirmed my love for the instrument. Gonna go ahead to get my yamaha rbx374, probably soon.
Also realised that getting a solid bass amp is much more important than getting a top end bass guitar itself. There is just so big a difference when using a good amp and a poor amp. My understanding is that a good amp can make an average bass sound good, but nothing will ever sound good on a lousy amp, which i think is pretty logical. Haha.
Love da tang's Roland, absolutely delicious to play with.
Flooded with priorities, Maths, Core, CL test. Arr.
Now Listening to: Let Me Go
By: 3 Doors Down
Saturday, May 21, 2005
Worship service today was good(when isn't worship good?)...
Made some minor mistakes here and there, and the bass solo, although fun, was really petrifying. May seem easy but never is.
I think God really spoke to me during cell group, when we were talking about servant-like thinking, how to think of ourselves less, and of others more, and the essence of serving: humility. He's reminding me that its not about the music, its not about the sermon, its not about whether you perform better or worse than others. It's about Him. Like what Michael W Smith once sang:
I'm coming back to the heart of worship
and its all about You
its all about You, Jesus
Yup. It's all about the God above.
Anyway, attended 20 mins of drum lessons with joshua... interesting lesson. I think learning music is not just about hitting every 16th note with lightning accuracy, or that 200bpm solo. It's also about communication through the music, how you speak to the congregation through your music. Not only there is a technical aspect, but there is also a theoratical and philosophical aspect, like what to play and what not to play in a given situation. Because you may possess all the required skills, but how do you apply the skills given to you in effectively bring out the song?
Hmm. Can't wait for bass lessons to resume.
Made some minor mistakes here and there, and the bass solo, although fun, was really petrifying. May seem easy but never is.
I think God really spoke to me during cell group, when we were talking about servant-like thinking, how to think of ourselves less, and of others more, and the essence of serving: humility. He's reminding me that its not about the music, its not about the sermon, its not about whether you perform better or worse than others. It's about Him. Like what Michael W Smith once sang:
I'm coming back to the heart of worship
and its all about You
its all about You, Jesus
Yup. It's all about the God above.
Anyway, attended 20 mins of drum lessons with joshua... interesting lesson. I think learning music is not just about hitting every 16th note with lightning accuracy, or that 200bpm solo. It's also about communication through the music, how you speak to the congregation through your music. Not only there is a technical aspect, but there is also a theoratical and philosophical aspect, like what to play and what not to play in a given situation. Because you may possess all the required skills, but how do you apply the skills given to you in effectively bring out the song?
Hmm. Can't wait for bass lessons to resume.
Monday, May 16, 2005
Arrgh just woke up from a nap. Yep. A nap from 2045 to 2245. Seems like I missed out most of my night activities which includes:
1) Erm...
Yep thats about it. Its not a long list. Probably because I have long successfully removed my addiction towards computer games, and I no longer need to receive a dosage of CS every 5 hours 4 times daily to survive. haha. I don't think I even know what I usually do at night.
I just spend it off doing something. There's always something to do.
Yeah... If I really don't have anything to do, I can always blog. =)
Anyway, felt abit angry after reading some stuff and hearing some stuff about tcc... Maybe secrets should always remain as what the word meant it to be. Something that nobody else will ever know. You don't have to be a genius to figure out that even the slip of a tongue or just a passing reference could result in very awkward and embarrassing situations. And I'm not sure if I'm entitled to be angry. It doesn't concern me much at all. Maybe I feel for my brother, maybe I'm just unhappy about what happened. Either way, I wont be inclined to go to tcc again, if thats the only thing we are ever going to do there.
Will pray for my brother.
Lord please give me peace.
Now Listening to: Be like that
By: 3 Doors Down
1) Erm...
Yep thats about it. Its not a long list. Probably because I have long successfully removed my addiction towards computer games, and I no longer need to receive a dosage of CS every 5 hours 4 times daily to survive. haha. I don't think I even know what I usually do at night.
I just spend it off doing something. There's always something to do.
Yeah... If I really don't have anything to do, I can always blog. =)
Anyway, felt abit angry after reading some stuff and hearing some stuff about tcc... Maybe secrets should always remain as what the word meant it to be. Something that nobody else will ever know. You don't have to be a genius to figure out that even the slip of a tongue or just a passing reference could result in very awkward and embarrassing situations. And I'm not sure if I'm entitled to be angry. It doesn't concern me much at all. Maybe I feel for my brother, maybe I'm just unhappy about what happened. Either way, I wont be inclined to go to tcc again, if thats the only thing we are ever going to do there.
Will pray for my brother.
Lord please give me peace.
Now Listening to: Be like that
By: 3 Doors Down
Saturday, May 14, 2005
Had a jam-packed day. Training in the morning till noon, then rush to church, and then finally to Taman Jurong CC to perform judo for our minister of education. Shook hands with Tharman (sp?), and my goodness, he has rEAlly big palms... haha.
Even though I was constantly busy and kept occupied, I think today is nothing as compared to two weeks from now, which would be the judo camp. Expect it to be tough. If it isn't, I will make it tough for myself. Time to round up ten years of dominance.
Was reminded about how open blogging can be today; Anyone can come online and read your diary, without leaving a trace. Even people whom you don't expect to read your blog may have read it in one way or another.
So it reminded me about the irony of the phrase "online diary". Essentially, it contradicts itself. When something is online, anyone can see it, everyone knows this fact. And a diary is something meant to be personal, something that nobody else should ever chance upon. So what does an online diary really mean? What do people hope to achieve through blogging? What do I hope to achieve through this blog?
Do I write out my secrets here? Obviously not.
So, what am I doing here if im not here to pen down my deepest and darkest thoughts?
Maybe I'll find an answer soon.
Now Listening to: thunder
Even though I was constantly busy and kept occupied, I think today is nothing as compared to two weeks from now, which would be the judo camp. Expect it to be tough. If it isn't, I will make it tough for myself. Time to round up ten years of dominance.
Was reminded about how open blogging can be today; Anyone can come online and read your diary, without leaving a trace. Even people whom you don't expect to read your blog may have read it in one way or another.
So it reminded me about the irony of the phrase "online diary". Essentially, it contradicts itself. When something is online, anyone can see it, everyone knows this fact. And a diary is something meant to be personal, something that nobody else should ever chance upon. So what does an online diary really mean? What do people hope to achieve through blogging? What do I hope to achieve through this blog?
Do I write out my secrets here? Obviously not.
So, what am I doing here if im not here to pen down my deepest and darkest thoughts?
Maybe I'll find an answer soon.
Now Listening to: thunder
Wednesday, May 11, 2005
Half-way through an incredibly boring week. Still have half more to go. Only motivation is the weekend that promises to be interesting... Judo performance and discipleship with Jack back. Haha. Jack's back from the outback.
Anyway.
I am incredibly bored right now. I wish something would change what I will be doing for tomorrow. Morning to noon, attend sleep-inducing sabbatical. Noon to Night, slack at home, with nothing to do, watch, or play with. Suddenly exams somehow seem appealing to me. I even bought 8 Days magazine to read. Can you imagine my boredom!!?!?!
Even the jam session we planned about 10 years ago was cancelled due to a lousy response from the people, thus adding to my misery.
Oh well. I guess thats the side effect of living a slack life; Too much time on your hands.
Anyway.
I am incredibly bored right now. I wish something would change what I will be doing for tomorrow. Morning to noon, attend sleep-inducing sabbatical. Noon to Night, slack at home, with nothing to do, watch, or play with. Suddenly exams somehow seem appealing to me. I even bought 8 Days magazine to read. Can you imagine my boredom!!?!?!
Even the jam session we planned about 10 years ago was cancelled due to a lousy response from the people, thus adding to my misery.
Oh well. I guess thats the side effect of living a slack life; Too much time on your hands.
Tuesday, May 10, 2005
Somewhat incoherent thoughts, but just wanted to write it down.
Just went to read my sister's blog, realised that indeed she has grown over the past few years, and has really become someone who loves God, though her tambourine experience and her exam period. I think it's really by God's grace that I am able to see many changes in the people around me, as well as in myself.
I remember in the past when we first came up to youth, it was like an "ai mai ai mai" kind of thing. We didn't really feel that "zeal" that was found in loving and serving God, at least for me, that is. We didn't attend cell on a regular basis. To be honest, it was pathetic. But I think something that really strikes me is that when I look at us now, we are miles away from the past. Probably because we have matured over the years, and I see a renewed faith and zest in the Lord's work amongst the guys. Most of us are now actively serving the church without being compelled to, but because we want to. It's amazing, really. Because the change from a few years back till now has been phenomenal. Recently, my mentor also shared with us how we were like in the past. Makes me wanna thank God for how we have progressed.
God really helped us through our mentor who put alot of faith in us, and I think its something I won't forget.
That's what our youth is all about.
That's what renewal is all about.
Now Listening to: Sunday Morning
By: Maroon 5
Just went to read my sister's blog, realised that indeed she has grown over the past few years, and has really become someone who loves God, though her tambourine experience and her exam period. I think it's really by God's grace that I am able to see many changes in the people around me, as well as in myself.
I remember in the past when we first came up to youth, it was like an "ai mai ai mai" kind of thing. We didn't really feel that "zeal" that was found in loving and serving God, at least for me, that is. We didn't attend cell on a regular basis. To be honest, it was pathetic. But I think something that really strikes me is that when I look at us now, we are miles away from the past. Probably because we have matured over the years, and I see a renewed faith and zest in the Lord's work amongst the guys. Most of us are now actively serving the church without being compelled to, but because we want to. It's amazing, really. Because the change from a few years back till now has been phenomenal. Recently, my mentor also shared with us how we were like in the past. Makes me wanna thank God for how we have progressed.
God really helped us through our mentor who put alot of faith in us, and I think its something I won't forget.
That's what our youth is all about.
That's what renewal is all about.
Now Listening to: Sunday Morning
By: Maroon 5
Friday, May 06, 2005
My life is incomplete without a bass guitar... argh. Going yamaha today at PS really stroked the flames of my desire(lol) to get a bass.
Really, I cannot stand it anymore. I want it right here right now!
Sabbatical week. Time for me to get back on track for my studies. Take a breather. And go jamming with the guys. Maybe on thursday, if they want to and I'll have shift weights to tuesday.
Been thinking alot these few days. About some stuff.
But I think I really can't afford to keep thinking and dreaming of what is five, ten years away from now. Have to focus on my life NOW. No point 'obsess-ing' about issues so far ahead.
Now Listening to: Metalingus
By: Alter Bridge
Really, I cannot stand it anymore. I want it right here right now!
Sabbatical week. Time for me to get back on track for my studies. Take a breather. And go jamming with the guys. Maybe on thursday, if they want to and I'll have shift weights to tuesday.
Been thinking alot these few days. About some stuff.
But I think I really can't afford to keep thinking and dreaming of what is five, ten years away from now. Have to focus on my life NOW. No point 'obsess-ing' about issues so far ahead.
Now Listening to: Metalingus
By: Alter Bridge
Tuesday, May 03, 2005
Feeling very moody right now. I don't know why. Don't feel like talking to anybody. Kept thinking about the conversations I had yesterday.
Is it too early to make decisions?
Is it really what I want?
Is it just part of an impossible dream?
Will I regret it years down the road when I look back?
Questions, Questions.
I need to stop thinking about it. Yet I cannot.
Is it too early to make decisions?
Is it really what I want?
Is it just part of an impossible dream?
Will I regret it years down the road when I look back?
Questions, Questions.
I need to stop thinking about it. Yet I cannot.
Monday, May 02, 2005
passion
I've been thinking... of where I will be ten years from now. Seems to me that I have no idea where I want to go from JC. What to study. What to prepare myself to work as.
Sciences? Blank. Humanities? Blank. Haven't made up my mind on anything at all.
However, today at Sentosa, I had a good talk with huiyi, huilin's elder sister, about studies... and then about ambitions. I said I have no interests in sciences and humanities, since my results in them are at best average.
Learnt from her that one shouldn't let his grades dictate what he does, what matters most is what he really wants. She mentioned Joshua, who quit his job after two years to teach drumming full-time, as he really hated the first job. So what if the income may not be steady? As long as he loves it, and is doing something the God is pleased with, God will provide for him.
I have that same feeling. I feel that I wanna study music. If my disappointment when I heard that I cannot study music next year in JC is any indication, I think it is clear that my passion lies in music. After the chat with huiyi and Joshua, I am all the more inclined to really give it a try. The only obstacle would be the need to sustain a livelihood of my family, since financial security may be an issue.
Its funny how when it was the first time I really sat down and talked to them, and yet I learnt so many things from them just from their life stories. yep.
Next stop, Berkley School of Music? I don't know. Really.
Will seek an answer.
"When you have passion in your job, you don't have to work anymore." - huiyi
Now Listening to: Smile like you mean it
By: The killers
Sciences? Blank. Humanities? Blank. Haven't made up my mind on anything at all.
However, today at Sentosa, I had a good talk with huiyi, huilin's elder sister, about studies... and then about ambitions. I said I have no interests in sciences and humanities, since my results in them are at best average.
Learnt from her that one shouldn't let his grades dictate what he does, what matters most is what he really wants. She mentioned Joshua, who quit his job after two years to teach drumming full-time, as he really hated the first job. So what if the income may not be steady? As long as he loves it, and is doing something the God is pleased with, God will provide for him.
I have that same feeling. I feel that I wanna study music. If my disappointment when I heard that I cannot study music next year in JC is any indication, I think it is clear that my passion lies in music. After the chat with huiyi and Joshua, I am all the more inclined to really give it a try. The only obstacle would be the need to sustain a livelihood of my family, since financial security may be an issue.
Its funny how when it was the first time I really sat down and talked to them, and yet I learnt so many things from them just from their life stories. yep.
Next stop, Berkley School of Music? I don't know. Really.
Will seek an answer.
"When you have passion in your job, you don't have to work anymore." - huiyi
Now Listening to: Smile like you mean it
By: The killers
Sunday, May 01, 2005
1st of Jan and 1st of May. Two dates I will never forget. Haha.
Had a wonderful day. Church service was fun, because the speaker from another church gave an engaging sermon and really kept us interested about it, about missions. After that we discussed for about 20 mins(getting more and more like girls...) for our lunch arrangement. In the end we decided to eat at block 3 (again).
Went to the coffee connoisseur in Clark Quay. Slacked around for 4 hours with a cup of 5.90 latte mocha. Talked alot of cock and crap. Learnt many things and stuff I never knew about my brothers today, but will keep the information to myself... heh. All I can say is that it certainly brought us closer together =)
In the end went to eat swensens with the other brothers. Superb fish and chips, and baked rice. Was then treated to an Earthquake. woops.
Shagged now. Still have to go sentosa tomorrow. In about 9 hours time. woops.
Had a wonderful day. Church service was fun, because the speaker from another church gave an engaging sermon and really kept us interested about it, about missions. After that we discussed for about 20 mins(getting more and more like girls...) for our lunch arrangement. In the end we decided to eat at block 3 (again).
Went to the coffee connoisseur in Clark Quay. Slacked around for 4 hours with a cup of 5.90 latte mocha. Talked alot of cock and crap. Learnt many things and stuff I never knew about my brothers today, but will keep the information to myself... heh. All I can say is that it certainly brought us closer together =)
In the end went to eat swensens with the other brothers. Superb fish and chips, and baked rice. Was then treated to an Earthquake. woops.
Shagged now. Still have to go sentosa tomorrow. In about 9 hours time. woops.
Wednesday, April 27, 2005
I love bass. Finding it much more interesting than guitar. I find that it encompasses a good combination of rythmn and melody, which is something that I really want.
How the bass plays really affects the mood, the atmosphere of the song, and it's that creativity it permits that attracts me. Not like the guitar, or drums, who have less control over such things, and much less to work with. Who cares about the solos? Its the solid bass groove and rythmn that people dance to anyway... haha.
Anyway.
Looking forward to having more bass lessons with pinjun, although we haven't had it since feb or march. Just so much to learn. Haven't done my finger PT for a long time. Will try to incoporate it into my school life. Will be serving in may, in the adult service, which is something that I didn't expect. Kinda felt apprehensive about it first, but it's a joy to serve the Lord, so I did not give up this chance. I believe He will help me.
On a sidenote, I am determined to get my own bass guitar. How am I going to play well if I don't have one to practice with? My standards aren't very high, just something solid, and durable. Doesn't have to be 5 or 6 string, just something that is... for lack of a better word... 'steady'. Haha.
Sigh, back to studying for Chinese Test. Actually there isn't much difference between midyears and our common test, but you feel better telling yourself that there's no "official" mid-year paper in May. Thats our school. Sigh.
How the bass plays really affects the mood, the atmosphere of the song, and it's that creativity it permits that attracts me. Not like the guitar, or drums, who have less control over such things, and much less to work with. Who cares about the solos? Its the solid bass groove and rythmn that people dance to anyway... haha.
Anyway.
Looking forward to having more bass lessons with pinjun, although we haven't had it since feb or march. Just so much to learn. Haven't done my finger PT for a long time. Will try to incoporate it into my school life. Will be serving in may, in the adult service, which is something that I didn't expect. Kinda felt apprehensive about it first, but it's a joy to serve the Lord, so I did not give up this chance. I believe He will help me.
On a sidenote, I am determined to get my own bass guitar. How am I going to play well if I don't have one to practice with? My standards aren't very high, just something solid, and durable. Doesn't have to be 5 or 6 string, just something that is... for lack of a better word... 'steady'. Haha.
Sigh, back to studying for Chinese Test. Actually there isn't much difference between midyears and our common test, but you feel better telling yourself that there's no "official" mid-year paper in May. Thats our school. Sigh.
Tuesday, April 26, 2005
I hate my calculator. Its battery is dead since I left it on for the whole holidays.
Now it runs solely on solar power, since I'm too lazy to change the calculator batteries.
Meaning that If you cover the solar thingy at the top, the calculator goes off.
The worst thing is if I want to do maths at night, I'll have to switch on an extra lamp to "feed" the calculator light. And when I have to calculate I will need to do it directly under the lamp.
I hate my calculator.
Now it runs solely on solar power, since I'm too lazy to change the calculator batteries.
Meaning that If you cover the solar thingy at the top, the calculator goes off.
The worst thing is if I want to do maths at night, I'll have to switch on an extra lamp to "feed" the calculator light. And when I have to calculate I will need to do it directly under the lamp.
I hate my calculator.
Monday, April 25, 2005
Totally flunked my maths test. Seems to be no doubt that I will fail this test miserably and get B or even C for maths this term. Scored 95% for a previous test, so thought that I could afford to score a little bit less for this one. Maybe I was a little complacent, so I didn't really put in much effort in the maths revision, focusing instead more on my Lit. In a sense, I gave up maths to score for shakespeare. And the situation tells me that the Lit will be easier than maths, and I will have scored reasonably well if I studied for maths more than lit.
Instead I went and did the opposite. Now I only have my literature test as a possible source of consolation for my disasterous maths screw-up. Hope I score well tomorrow.
Lesson learnt: Never underestimate your problems ahead of you, even if you have a safety net under you. Treat obstacles like you would treat every exam. Seriously.
Seriously considering getting a bass guitar. Hopefully something around a low end 0.5K one. Yep. 500-600 for a good low end or a lousy middle range bass. Will look around for possible targets next sunday.
Now Listening to: Smooth
By: Santana feat. Rob Thomas
Instead I went and did the opposite. Now I only have my literature test as a possible source of consolation for my disasterous maths screw-up. Hope I score well tomorrow.
Lesson learnt: Never underestimate your problems ahead of you, even if you have a safety net under you. Treat obstacles like you would treat every exam. Seriously.
Seriously considering getting a bass guitar. Hopefully something around a low end 0.5K one. Yep. 500-600 for a good low end or a lousy middle range bass. Will look around for possible targets next sunday.
Now Listening to: Smooth
By: Santana feat. Rob Thomas
Thursday, April 21, 2005
Currently 70% done with my revision of tomorrow's test. 10% on reversible reactions, and 20% of practice questions. Going to start in five minutes. Shouldn't take too long.
Felt really sad about my class today. It's in turmoil.
Discipline problems(if there was any discipline at all), attitude against teachers, lousy cleaniness. Zero situational literacy, and only a minimal level of responsibility. When the teachers zero in on the noisy ones, they start criticising the monitor, blah blah, trying to push the blame to the monitor who was supposedly "biased" against them. I mean if you really were that obedient, nobody would have been able to pinpoint you right? Who cares if other people joined in? What he's talking about is you. Did you do it? Anyway, it really is the worst period our class has gone through. It is starting to dawn upon me that there's no such thing as self-discipline in our class. We always need some form of "punishment" or consequence behind anything for people NOT to do it.
Nobody does anything just because "its right".
Its always because "if you don't... something will happen to you".
Why can't people behave appropriately when the situation calls for it?
God teach me to be patient!
Now Listening to: Can't stop now
By: Keane
Felt really sad about my class today. It's in turmoil.
Discipline problems(if there was any discipline at all), attitude against teachers, lousy cleaniness. Zero situational literacy, and only a minimal level of responsibility. When the teachers zero in on the noisy ones, they start criticising the monitor, blah blah, trying to push the blame to the monitor who was supposedly "biased" against them. I mean if you really were that obedient, nobody would have been able to pinpoint you right? Who cares if other people joined in? What he's talking about is you. Did you do it? Anyway, it really is the worst period our class has gone through. It is starting to dawn upon me that there's no such thing as self-discipline in our class. We always need some form of "punishment" or consequence behind anything for people NOT to do it.
Nobody does anything just because "its right".
Its always because "if you don't... something will happen to you".
Why can't people behave appropriately when the situation calls for it?
God teach me to be patient!
Now Listening to: Can't stop now
By: Keane
Tuesday, April 19, 2005
Monday, April 18, 2005
Feeling frustrated right now. I wish everyday were spent with my church friends.
I guess as you grow up you gradually realise that its such a wonderful thing being able to worship and grow together.
Somehow or rather I don't feel that sense of closeness to my school mates like when I'm with my church friends, even though I spend 5/7 of my week with them. I find that my peers are too preoccupied with having fun, and its hard to strike up a serious conversation because you've been talking only cock with them for 3 1/2 years. In a culture where people are constantly joking around, its hard to show your true self, the sad, angry, disappointed, reflective self. I feel like I'm constantly wearing a mask to fit in to the accepted "behaviour" of an average-sec4-student-from-4K guy.
That's why I long to be with my church friends. Where I can be my real self. Or at least where its easier to.
I hate being in school, although I love my school.
I daydream of a time when there's no study, no work. A time when we just spend the rest of our time glorifying the Lord's name, worshipping and learning about him. And we wouldn't have to care about the bare necessities, like food and money and studies. Just focusing on Him. Everyday would be Sunday and we would all gather in praise and worship.
Kinda sounds like heaven, come to think of it.
But its time to get back to earth.
And study physics.
Now Listening to: Let it Rain
By: Keri Noble
I guess as you grow up you gradually realise that its such a wonderful thing being able to worship and grow together.
Somehow or rather I don't feel that sense of closeness to my school mates like when I'm with my church friends, even though I spend 5/7 of my week with them. I find that my peers are too preoccupied with having fun, and its hard to strike up a serious conversation because you've been talking only cock with them for 3 1/2 years. In a culture where people are constantly joking around, its hard to show your true self, the sad, angry, disappointed, reflective self. I feel like I'm constantly wearing a mask to fit in to the accepted "behaviour" of an average-sec4-student-from-4K guy.
That's why I long to be with my church friends. Where I can be my real self. Or at least where its easier to.
I hate being in school, although I love my school.
I daydream of a time when there's no study, no work. A time when we just spend the rest of our time glorifying the Lord's name, worshipping and learning about him. And we wouldn't have to care about the bare necessities, like food and money and studies. Just focusing on Him. Everyday would be Sunday and we would all gather in praise and worship.
Kinda sounds like heaven, come to think of it.
But its time to get back to earth.
And study physics.
Now Listening to: Let it Rain
By: Keri Noble
Friday, April 15, 2005
Wednesday, April 13, 2005
Hooked onto 3 Doors Down.
Hate my maths hw. 6 grand qns. 17 sub qns. woo. Feeling Cheated now. 19 qns in all and have to copy about 6 50-word questions.
Looking forward to worship practice tomorrow evening.
Even though I wont have time to study for Chinese Ting Xie.
Serving the Lord's far more important than ting xie. Yep.
Priorities, Priorities
Now Listening to: Let Me Go
Hate my maths hw. 6 grand qns. 17 sub qns. woo. Feeling Cheated now. 19 qns in all and have to copy about 6 50-word questions.
Looking forward to worship practice tomorrow evening.
Even though I wont have time to study for Chinese Ting Xie.
Serving the Lord's far more important than ting xie. Yep.
Priorities, Priorities
Now Listening to: Let Me Go
Monday, April 11, 2005
Had a really fun weekend, with the main focus being the night cycling from sat night to sunday morning. Didn't wanna join it initially, but i thought 'it isn't really that often i get to go night clycling', so I just joined in. Didn't regret.
Our route took us from East Coast to esplanade, then to Chinatown, which was like a few hour's ride. Okay. Not too bad. This being my third time actually riding a bike, I was riding quite well imo. Despite me riding reasonably well, there were still numerous situations that I just couldn't control my bike well enough.
It was really a fun experience, singing church songs along the way, talking crap and whatnot. Discovered that the kopitiam at maxwell is being frequented by guys who are less "straight". Haha. Oh well, so long as the food there is good it doesn't matter. cong1 you2 bing3 rocks.
The return trip was abit less "crappy" and more manageble in terms of me riding a bike. Finally got down my initial acceleration, and get to look less like a clown. lol. Less crappy in the sense that we were generally more tired and just focused on the actual riding than anything else.
Its an amazing feeling when you're cycling along a long and quiet road, and you look up to the stars, to the trees, with the wind blowing against your face. Its all His creation. Sometimes we just rush past these amazing things that He has created, not noticing them at all. Im glad I spent that night appreciating it all.
Only thing that marred the happy return trip was a pair of teens, about 17-19 years old. Just playing a fool along the bike pavement. One pushed the other right into the path of Sihui, knocking her right off the bike. Luckily she didn't get hurt, but the bike was spoilt. Was kinda pissed at them but didn't say anything. If I were the one being knocked off I would've demanded an apology from them. Fool around if you must, but don't jeapordise the safety of others. Oh well.
Watched sunrise, which took a horribly long time. Waited for thirty minutes or so. Should've read the newspaper for the sunrise time. The wait was worth it though. Really nice, orange.. thing just came out of the clouds(not the sea). Discovered a new sleep-deprived wenqi at that was quiet, serious and "manly". Heh. Should deprive him of sleep a little more.
Fun day/night/morning.
Now Listening to: The Real Life
By: 3 Doors Down
Our route took us from East Coast to esplanade, then to Chinatown, which was like a few hour's ride. Okay. Not too bad. This being my third time actually riding a bike, I was riding quite well imo. Despite me riding reasonably well, there were still numerous situations that I just couldn't control my bike well enough.
It was really a fun experience, singing church songs along the way, talking crap and whatnot. Discovered that the kopitiam at maxwell is being frequented by guys who are less "straight". Haha. Oh well, so long as the food there is good it doesn't matter. cong1 you2 bing3 rocks.
The return trip was abit less "crappy" and more manageble in terms of me riding a bike. Finally got down my initial acceleration, and get to look less like a clown. lol. Less crappy in the sense that we were generally more tired and just focused on the actual riding than anything else.
Its an amazing feeling when you're cycling along a long and quiet road, and you look up to the stars, to the trees, with the wind blowing against your face. Its all His creation. Sometimes we just rush past these amazing things that He has created, not noticing them at all. Im glad I spent that night appreciating it all.
Only thing that marred the happy return trip was a pair of teens, about 17-19 years old. Just playing a fool along the bike pavement. One pushed the other right into the path of Sihui, knocking her right off the bike. Luckily she didn't get hurt, but the bike was spoilt. Was kinda pissed at them but didn't say anything. If I were the one being knocked off I would've demanded an apology from them. Fool around if you must, but don't jeapordise the safety of others. Oh well.
Watched sunrise, which took a horribly long time. Waited for thirty minutes or so. Should've read the newspaper for the sunrise time. The wait was worth it though. Really nice, orange.. thing just came out of the clouds(not the sea). Discovered a new sleep-deprived wenqi at that was quiet, serious and "manly". Heh. Should deprive him of sleep a little more.
Fun day/night/morning.
Now Listening to: The Real Life
By: 3 Doors Down
Sunday, April 03, 2005
It's been a hectic week. MRP, chinese test, blah blah.
However the highlight of the week would be the age-group judo competition today. Did pretty well in my own opinion, even when I merely won a bronze medal. Faced-off carl in the semi-finals today, and lost by a small yuko. Not too bad... Velden's really improved in his throw, which is quick and deadly. Haha.
All in all we reaped a total of 9 golds in 12 categories (not too sure about C div), which is remarkable in its own right. I think we are on the right track and just have to keep up with this pace and work with the end in mind. There will be no regrets come july.
Sometimes during training I am reminded of the idea that one should aim to glorify the Lord in everything he does, and I wonder, how does participating in judo activity achieve that? Just a stray thought.
Off to mug for Maths test(dydx and bearings).
Now Listening to: Here without you
By: 3 Doors Down
However the highlight of the week would be the age-group judo competition today. Did pretty well in my own opinion, even when I merely won a bronze medal. Faced-off carl in the semi-finals today, and lost by a small yuko. Not too bad... Velden's really improved in his throw, which is quick and deadly. Haha.
All in all we reaped a total of 9 golds in 12 categories (not too sure about C div), which is remarkable in its own right. I think we are on the right track and just have to keep up with this pace and work with the end in mind. There will be no regrets come july.
Sometimes during training I am reminded of the idea that one should aim to glorify the Lord in everything he does, and I wonder, how does participating in judo activity achieve that? Just a stray thought.
Off to mug for Maths test(dydx and bearings).
Now Listening to: Here without you
By: 3 Doors Down
Sunday, March 27, 2005
Thursday, March 17, 2005
ISFJ-The Protector
Your Type is 0% Extroverted, 75% Observant, 6% Logical and 75% Structured
The protector type is called such because you feel your life is best used to protect those you love from the pitfalls of life, to see to their safety and security. You belong to the larger group called guardians. You find great satisfaction in assisting the downtrodden. You are not talkative with strangers, but you can chat tirelessly with those you trust. You have a good solid work ethic. You are thorough and very likely frugal. You do not like to be in a place of authority, and will delegate poorly if forced into a lead position. You share your type with 10% of the population.
As a romantic partner, you are generous and gentle. Occasionally you may be taken for granted because of this fact. You are tireless in providing acts of service for your loved ones. You run the risk of always being exhausted because you won't say no to your partner. You are sensitive to criticism and will withdraw rather than fight back. You wish to be appreciated for your loyalty and whole hearted nuturing. Your values must be respected and you thrive on consideration and kindness.
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Quite true for me.
Your Type is 0% Extroverted, 75% Observant, 6% Logical and 75% Structured
As a romantic partner, you are generous and gentle. Occasionally you may be taken for granted because of this fact. You are tireless in providing acts of service for your loved ones. You run the risk of always being exhausted because you won't say no to your partner. You are sensitive to criticism and will withdraw rather than fight back. You wish to be appreciated for your loyalty and whole hearted nuturing. Your values must be respected and you thrive on consideration and kindness.
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Quite true for me.
Ate prawns with Katong Laksa today. Now feeling itchy all over. Strange growth on my elbow. Should not eat anymore prawns from today onwards.
Totally shagged after 4 hours of lan. Felt like dying after the session, when the adrenaline starts to wear off. Didn't even follow the guys to watch ppl play play basketball. Went straight home. Slept for 2 hours.
Pretty much a mindless day. Didn't have enlightenment about global politics or economical impact of natural disasters.
Seem to have stunted growth learning guitar. I can fret most chords perfectly. I can strum most of the church songs without much problem. Now I need to find something else to learn besides mastering chord changes. I don't want to go in to electric guitar, picking, power chords, that kind of stuff. Maybe i'll learn more finger picking styles, or some nice acoustic songs like "more than words". Just seems so slow. No longer in that short period where i learn a whole lot of stuff as compared to in November.
Now Listening to: Lyin' Eyes
By: The Eagles
Totally shagged after 4 hours of lan. Felt like dying after the session, when the adrenaline starts to wear off. Didn't even follow the guys to watch ppl play play basketball. Went straight home. Slept for 2 hours.
Pretty much a mindless day. Didn't have enlightenment about global politics or economical impact of natural disasters.
Seem to have stunted growth learning guitar. I can fret most chords perfectly. I can strum most of the church songs without much problem. Now I need to find something else to learn besides mastering chord changes. I don't want to go in to electric guitar, picking, power chords, that kind of stuff. Maybe i'll learn more finger picking styles, or some nice acoustic songs like "more than words". Just seems so slow. No longer in that short period where i learn a whole lot of stuff as compared to in November.
Now Listening to: Lyin' Eyes
By: The Eagles
Sunday, March 13, 2005
Haven't really blogged much lately, probably due to my hectic training schedule. Really been working hard to make up for the lost time and lost fitness during my last sickness, which is like, 2-3 weeks ago. And just when I'm starting to catch up with the intense training, I get a swollen foot, meaning maybe another 2-3 trainings gone.
Its just like life. You never know when the next bad thing will hit you. There may be moments of peace, and then in a blink of an eye, everything starts to plunge downwards. Suddenly everything is going wrong for you. When you haven't even gotten up from the ground, you fall flat on the ground again.
Just when RuiZhi is gradually recovering, the illness of their parents worsen. That's life.
But if there's anything that I learnt during the week, it is that no matter how down in the dumps one may be, God will always be with him. He is, after all, creator of the universe. Like what my friend jack says, God is in control. That is why we must be strong.
We must continue to hold the belief that everything that God allows to happen, happens for a reason. We need not understand. All we need is that faith in him.
"Whenever we cannot comprehend, all the more we must believe that God's love is at work." -weiliang
Its just like life. You never know when the next bad thing will hit you. There may be moments of peace, and then in a blink of an eye, everything starts to plunge downwards. Suddenly everything is going wrong for you. When you haven't even gotten up from the ground, you fall flat on the ground again.
Just when RuiZhi is gradually recovering, the illness of their parents worsen. That's life.
But if there's anything that I learnt during the week, it is that no matter how down in the dumps one may be, God will always be with him. He is, after all, creator of the universe. Like what my friend jack says, God is in control. That is why we must be strong.
We must continue to hold the belief that everything that God allows to happen, happens for a reason. We need not understand. All we need is that faith in him.
"Whenever we cannot comprehend, all the more we must believe that God's love is at work." -weiliang
Wednesday, March 09, 2005
Thinking back on the title of the recent church CD, "journey of faith", I cannot help but think that right here, right now, we are truly embarking on such a journey. Currently, our faith is being tested, and yet concurrently it is also being strengthened. Our pastor's son is now suffering from dengue fever, and is in a very critical condition. PinJun's mum is hospitalised because of heartache. Somebody I'm thinking of is also going through all this, but I'll respect his/her privacy by not posting who he/she is.
I think it is in times like this when we grow in faith, as a church, as brothers and sisters in chirst, as individuals. We learn to trust in the lord. Even when we cannot see, God will lead us.
Illness and sicknesses may plague us, but our faith in the Lord will not falter.
Amen?
Now Listening to: Daughters
By: John Mayer
I think it is in times like this when we grow in faith, as a church, as brothers and sisters in chirst, as individuals. We learn to trust in the lord. Even when we cannot see, God will lead us.
Illness and sicknesses may plague us, but our faith in the Lord will not falter.
Amen?
Now Listening to: Daughters
By: John Mayer
Friday, March 04, 2005
It feels like I'm constantly trying to catch up with time these days. There's simply too little time to think; There will always be something that is due, or that needs attention, that prevents me from doing what I really want. Its not totally because of judo. Its just this period when everything seems to whiz past you and its all a blur.
Many things done, yet nothing memorable. It gets tiring, really.
I want to stop and look at the other side of the world, as my friend puts it. The side without all the fooling around, the lame jokes and the crapping around my friends. Sometimes I ask myself: "Is there anything else that holds my friendships together besides that?"
If you take all the jokes and crap away, what is left? What really holds us together?
Up to this day, I'm still searching for an answer...
Many things done, yet nothing memorable. It gets tiring, really.
I want to stop and look at the other side of the world, as my friend puts it. The side without all the fooling around, the lame jokes and the crapping around my friends. Sometimes I ask myself: "Is there anything else that holds my friendships together besides that?"
If you take all the jokes and crap away, what is left? What really holds us together?
Up to this day, I'm still searching for an answer...
Monday, February 28, 2005
I get the feeling that almost everyone around my age has gone through or is going through some kind of problems, so much so that it affects their emotions, their work, etc. I just don't understand why there is a general sense of "indifference" in me towards the problems of others and myself.
I don't feel overly sympethetic to sad and troubled friends. I don't feel immense joy at my own successes. I don't feel burning anger because injustice is displayed in one way or another. I don't show much friendliness towards others except for those that I am close to. I don't have the urge to try and mediate conflicts between two individuals. I feel I am always going: "Oh... really?" and then I go "Oh.. okay."
Deep down, I understand the feelings of those people who feel sad or angry or whatever.
I want to help. I really care.
But sometimes its a thin line that seperates caring from being nosey. I don't want others to feel that I'm just being "ba1 gua4". I don't want others to think that I'm just rubbing it into their wound when they're feeling depressed.
In the end, I just appear to be indifferent. Like I don't care.
Now Listening to: Scar Tissue
By: RHCP
I don't feel overly sympethetic to sad and troubled friends. I don't feel immense joy at my own successes. I don't feel burning anger because injustice is displayed in one way or another. I don't show much friendliness towards others except for those that I am close to. I don't have the urge to try and mediate conflicts between two individuals. I feel I am always going: "Oh... really?" and then I go "Oh.. okay."
Deep down, I understand the feelings of those people who feel sad or angry or whatever.
I want to help. I really care.
But sometimes its a thin line that seperates caring from being nosey. I don't want others to feel that I'm just being "ba1 gua4". I don't want others to think that I'm just rubbing it into their wound when they're feeling depressed.
In the end, I just appear to be indifferent. Like I don't care.
Now Listening to: Scar Tissue
By: RHCP
Saturday, February 26, 2005
Wednesday, February 23, 2005
Haven't been able to blog regularly... because I'm busy. Been sleeping at around 11++ everyday for 1 week straight, which is something I don't normally do.
Many things happened during these past few days that I didn't blog, things that taught me lessons.
I felt angry about things. I was pissed. Pissed about somethings things that people say. But God made me understand that everytime I feel angry about something, it is yet another time that I learn to forgive. Sometimes you just have to take things in your stride, and get on with life. I can't afford to be pissed forever. Not sure why but I felt angry at alot of things this week. Phew.
Sometimes you don't know a person until you need help from him. A few days ago, I needed my comprehension paper from class, but it was already 4pm and the classes were locked. Just when I thought I was done for, I saw Song Jun. I needed a copy of the compre paper so I approached him, thinking that although there was not much hope, I had to try. Instead of saying he's busy or blahblah, he offered to follow me to the library to photocopy the paper, and use his photocopy card. Was abit shocked at his willingnes to help me.
It may not seem much, but not everyone would have responded the way he did. He was on his way home, and it was late. He could have tried to talk me out of getting his paper to photocopy, since he would have to wait for me. Yet he did the opposite of what I expected of him.
I thought to myself: Actually, he's not so lazy and unhelpful as he seems.
Many people make fun of him, insult him and his lame jokes, but I don't think many realise that he's actually a much better friend than many of us claim to be. I imagined some other people in the same situation as Song Jun, any I don't think many would have done the same thing.
Ask yourself, are you willing to go out of your way, and your convinience, to help whom you consider as your friend?
Many things happened during these past few days that I didn't blog, things that taught me lessons.
I felt angry about things. I was pissed. Pissed about somethings things that people say. But God made me understand that everytime I feel angry about something, it is yet another time that I learn to forgive. Sometimes you just have to take things in your stride, and get on with life. I can't afford to be pissed forever. Not sure why but I felt angry at alot of things this week. Phew.
Sometimes you don't know a person until you need help from him. A few days ago, I needed my comprehension paper from class, but it was already 4pm and the classes were locked. Just when I thought I was done for, I saw Song Jun. I needed a copy of the compre paper so I approached him, thinking that although there was not much hope, I had to try. Instead of saying he's busy or blahblah, he offered to follow me to the library to photocopy the paper, and use his photocopy card. Was abit shocked at his willingnes to help me.
It may not seem much, but not everyone would have responded the way he did. He was on his way home, and it was late. He could have tried to talk me out of getting his paper to photocopy, since he would have to wait for me. Yet he did the opposite of what I expected of him.
I thought to myself: Actually, he's not so lazy and unhelpful as he seems.
Many people make fun of him, insult him and his lame jokes, but I don't think many realise that he's actually a much better friend than many of us claim to be. I imagined some other people in the same situation as Song Jun, any I don't think many would have done the same thing.
Ask yourself, are you willing to go out of your way, and your convinience, to help whom you consider as your friend?
Thursday, February 17, 2005
I am really pissed right now. Nothing seems to be going right for me now.
The browser just wiped out a long post that I had been writing. Funny how it seems that when you have nothing to blog about, everything is alright. But when start to think deeper, and write anything that actually means something to you, it just vanishes in a blink...
Heard alot of stuff regarding leadership today. What it requires, what it demands from an individual when he's a leader. I was rather overwhelmed, for lack of a better word, as it just dawned upon me that being a leader is totally different from effective leadership. I realise that its not that easy being an effective leader, to be able to coordinate the actions of people who are thinking on totally frequencies, much less get anything done as a group.
Sometimes I find myself being the more task-oriented amongst my peers. I feel that I like to settle down on an issue, quickly decide everything, and just get on with it. I don't like to focus on the nitty gritty details and dilly-dally all day. That is why I may seem to appear as being kan cheong when it comes to getting stuff done.
I tried to sit back, just relax, and let other people hassle over the decision making, and I'll just follow. But then I'll worry whether anything will even materialise. I don't even think I'm leadership material, and yet I want to get things done. And then I get pissed when too much time is spent on decision making.Its this dilemma I often face, and I have trouble expressing it to anyone.
Just need to let it off somehow.
Lord. Let me have peace. Shalom.
Now Listening to: A Rush of Blood to the Head
By: Coldplay
The browser just wiped out a long post that I had been writing. Funny how it seems that when you have nothing to blog about, everything is alright. But when start to think deeper, and write anything that actually means something to you, it just vanishes in a blink...
Heard alot of stuff regarding leadership today. What it requires, what it demands from an individual when he's a leader. I was rather overwhelmed, for lack of a better word, as it just dawned upon me that being a leader is totally different from effective leadership. I realise that its not that easy being an effective leader, to be able to coordinate the actions of people who are thinking on totally frequencies, much less get anything done as a group.
Sometimes I find myself being the more task-oriented amongst my peers. I feel that I like to settle down on an issue, quickly decide everything, and just get on with it. I don't like to focus on the nitty gritty details and dilly-dally all day. That is why I may seem to appear as being kan cheong when it comes to getting stuff done.
I tried to sit back, just relax, and let other people hassle over the decision making, and I'll just follow. But then I'll worry whether anything will even materialise. I don't even think I'm leadership material, and yet I want to get things done. And then I get pissed when too much time is spent on decision making.Its this dilemma I often face, and I have trouble expressing it to anyone.
Just need to let it off somehow.
Lord. Let me have peace. Shalom.
Now Listening to: A Rush of Blood to the Head
By: Coldplay
Sunday, February 13, 2005
Having diarrhea for the past 2 days. Constant muscle cramps, frequent toilet visits.
Affected my mood for the whole day.
The medicine isn't really working wonders.
And I have to study for 4 tests on tuesday and wednesday.
When all the while I can be outside watching Man U vs Man City, but I know I can't.
Just a quick blog to relieve some stress.
Now Listening to: Nothing
Affected my mood for the whole day.
The medicine isn't really working wonders.
And I have to study for 4 tests on tuesday and wednesday.
When all the while I can be outside watching Man U vs Man City, but I know I can't.
Just a quick blog to relieve some stress.
Now Listening to: Nothing
Friday, February 11, 2005
From dunno who:
"hmm... went to jp wit vivian to buy the present... ahhaha... me but too... hahah... hmm... well.. after tat went to swim... ahhaha.. swim about five plus then went to kopitiam and eat... hahahah... hmm... then went to ah ma hse... ahhaha... after a while jiu go home le... hmm.. then saw victor and guo long or guang long??... hahaha... i heard dunno got wat long wan de... ahhaha... then at there tok tok... hahah... they veri funni wan de lehz.... ahhaha... hmm... then jiu while walking home.. jiu saw siripong... hahha... long time no c everyone le... ahhaha... he change haircut... ahhha... not bad sia... ahhaha... hmm.. then jiu reach home le lorz... ahhaha... nothing to say... tat's all for todae... ahahha... bye..."
hahaha. ahhaha. hmm. hahaha.
Now Listening to: You don't know me
By: Michael Buble
"hmm... went to jp wit vivian to buy the present... ahhaha... me but too... hahah... hmm... well.. after tat went to swim... ahhaha.. swim about five plus then went to kopitiam and eat... hahahah... hmm... then went to ah ma hse... ahhaha... after a while jiu go home le... hmm.. then saw victor and guo long or guang long??... hahaha... i heard dunno got wat long wan de... ahhaha... then at there tok tok... hahah... they veri funni wan de lehz.... ahhaha... hmm... then jiu while walking home.. jiu saw siripong... hahha... long time no c everyone le... ahhaha... he change haircut... ahhha... not bad sia... ahhaha... hmm.. then jiu reach home le lorz... ahhaha... nothing to say... tat's all for todae... ahahha... bye..."
hahaha. ahhaha. hmm. hahaha.
Now Listening to: You don't know me
By: Michael Buble
Wednesday, February 09, 2005
Had a whole lot of time these few days.
Time to do more stuff.
Time to think about stuff.
Stuff that I don't normally spend time to think over.
Some of my friends are having problems over it. It seems to plague their thoughts.
Is it really that indispensable in our life?
Is it?
Now Listening to: Home
By: Michael Buble
Time to do more stuff.
Time to think about stuff.
Stuff that I don't normally spend time to think over.
Some of my friends are having problems over it. It seems to plague their thoughts.
Is it really that indispensable in our life?
Is it?
Now Listening to: Home
By: Michael Buble
Monday, February 07, 2005
Some Quotations.
Anger makes you smaller, while forgiveness forces you to grow beyond what you were.
Assert your right to make a few mistakes. If people can't accept your imperfections, that's their fault.
Friendship makes prosperity more shining and lessens adversity by dividing and sharing it.
Sometimes the light at the end of a tunnel is an oncoming train.
Nobody talks so constantly about God as those who insist that there is no God.
Now Listening to: Some silly Jap song
By: A japanese.
Anger makes you smaller, while forgiveness forces you to grow beyond what you were.
Assert your right to make a few mistakes. If people can't accept your imperfections, that's their fault.
Friendship makes prosperity more shining and lessens adversity by dividing and sharing it.
Sometimes the light at the end of a tunnel is an oncoming train.
Nobody talks so constantly about God as those who insist that there is no God.
Now Listening to: Some silly Jap song
By: A japanese.
Sunday, February 06, 2005
Secrets are like sand. The more you pour to other places the more some will spill out onto the floor. And no matter how you try sweep it away, some sand will still be on the floor. Some people around me are pouring sand around. I'm not. Does that make me any different?
No idea.
Uggh. I think i just made a rather bad analogy.
Anyway.
Kinda busy these few days. One hectic week. But the weekend really took the problems away. Thank God for giving me such good friends. Wanna blog more but homework calls.
Now Listening to: Vertigo
By: U2
No idea.
Uggh. I think i just made a rather bad analogy.
Anyway.
Kinda busy these few days. One hectic week. But the weekend really took the problems away. Thank God for giving me such good friends. Wanna blog more but homework calls.
Now Listening to: Vertigo
By: U2
Sunday, January 30, 2005
Played guitar for sunday school today, felt really great serving Him. Have to thank god for guiding everyone, including me, during the many rehersals and the actual worship itself.
Everyone did their best, and i thought we did a good job.
Seemed to have sprained my middle finger during training on friday, luckily didn't affect me much.
Wanted to, as De ren puts it, "release myself" while playing guitar... but maybe because I'm not good enough or sumthing, I played the wrong chord seconds soon after I closed my eyes.
Well, theres always a next time.
The joys of worship...
Now Listening to: A love that will last.
By: Renee Olstead
Everyone did their best, and i thought we did a good job.
Seemed to have sprained my middle finger during training on friday, luckily didn't affect me much.
Wanted to, as De ren puts it, "release myself" while playing guitar... but maybe because I'm not good enough or sumthing, I played the wrong chord seconds soon after I closed my eyes.
Well, theres always a next time.
The joys of worship...
Now Listening to: A love that will last.
By: Renee Olstead
Wednesday, January 26, 2005
Haven't been blogging lately, simply because life has been rather monotonous lately.
Study, Train, Sleep. Rinse and repeat.
Yawn.
On a lighter note, fought my first judo match in school today, and won against vernon... Quite happy since I have been rather off-form lately, even I myself was surprised by my ko-uchi-grab-leg-newaza move. Hopefully we'll all get better and better. Everyone's making improvement.
Finally gonna settle down on Lit/History slant for my Research paper, with the movie Dr Strangelove as a basis. Yay.
I've been thinking of God more these few months. Closer to him. Hope this never ends.
Now Listening to: The Zephyr Song
By: Red Hot Chili Peppers
Study, Train, Sleep. Rinse and repeat.
Yawn.
On a lighter note, fought my first judo match in school today, and won against vernon... Quite happy since I have been rather off-form lately, even I myself was surprised by my ko-uchi-grab-leg-newaza move. Hopefully we'll all get better and better. Everyone's making improvement.
Finally gonna settle down on Lit/History slant for my Research paper, with the movie Dr Strangelove as a basis. Yay.
I've been thinking of God more these few months. Closer to him. Hope this never ends.
Now Listening to: The Zephyr Song
By: Red Hot Chili Peppers
Monday, January 17, 2005
Starting to like maths a little bit more, maybe because of Mr Png. Much better alternative to MSgnoW. At least we get to laugh at the right things during lessons. Wanna get my studies right, aiming for Sub-3 Msg for term one. Hopefully something around 2++.
Not getting my hopes too high, just want to keep this momentum going.
Yep. Life's about momentum. Once you start, you don't stop until you finish it.
Once you stop, you gotta start again. More Effort. That's why I'm not gonna stop now. I'm not letting myself stop till I reach the next checkpoint, that is August, when the nationals end. I'm going to build on my momentum all the way.
Anyway.
Guitar has officially replaced computer games as my past time. It's just hard to resist the urge to just strum around when I have the time. I look back at my past 2 months learning guitar; Those painful fingers, those sore hands, and I tell myself it's worth it.
My friends may not understand my obsession with guitar, but that can't be helped.
Neither can I understand other people's obsession with tennis, or chinese pop, or with in-line skating, or playing around with "affairs of the heart". It just can't be help.
But as the Beatles used to sing: Let it be...
Now Listening to: Nothing
Not getting my hopes too high, just want to keep this momentum going.
Yep. Life's about momentum. Once you start, you don't stop until you finish it.
Once you stop, you gotta start again. More Effort. That's why I'm not gonna stop now. I'm not letting myself stop till I reach the next checkpoint, that is August, when the nationals end. I'm going to build on my momentum all the way.
Anyway.
Guitar has officially replaced computer games as my past time. It's just hard to resist the urge to just strum around when I have the time. I look back at my past 2 months learning guitar; Those painful fingers, those sore hands, and I tell myself it's worth it.
My friends may not understand my obsession with guitar, but that can't be helped.
Neither can I understand other people's obsession with tennis, or chinese pop, or with in-line skating, or playing around with "affairs of the heart". It just can't be help.
But as the Beatles used to sing: Let it be...
Now Listening to: Nothing
Sunday, January 16, 2005
Wednesday, January 12, 2005
Completed my first homework that isn't last-minute!! A sense of satisfaction fills my body at this very moment. Trying to regain my homework-doing-momentum in p6. That is to chiong finish the homework asap and enjoy myself. Given the workload, I will have to chiong harder, faster and more efficiently. That means foregoing recess when I'm not hungry to chiong. One of my new year resolutions is to do less last minute work, since IP is about a different sec 4 life.
This is going to be a tough year but I will SURVIVE.
Now Listening to: I will survive
By: Cake
This is going to be a tough year but I will SURVIVE.
Now Listening to: I will survive
By: Cake
Tuesday, January 11, 2005
Monday, January 10, 2005
Sometimes I just want to find another place, another country to just escape to. I am starting to be bored at what I'm going through, tough training at such a consistent pace, school work is flooding in. I am searching for that "fresh" feeling and eagerness to my life this year, something that I had alot of during sec 1.
Maybe because I am doing what I have been doing for three whole years. It will get boring at one point in time or another. I just need something to freshen me up, or, take me away.
Now Listening to: Fly me to the moon
By: Frank Sinatra
Maybe because I am doing what I have been doing for three whole years. It will get boring at one point in time or another. I just need something to freshen me up, or, take me away.
Now Listening to: Fly me to the moon
By: Frank Sinatra
Friday, January 07, 2005
School life and tough judo training has been made bearable since I got PinJun's bass guitar. I'm gonna make full use of this bass guitar until Feb, when I have to hand it over to Junwei...
Practicing hard with it.
Gonna have another lesson tomorrow after cell, dunno what we're gonna learn.
Finding it hard to keep glued to my computer... it's become boring.
I don't feel the lure of computer games anymore.
Getting old? Maybe its just the long pants... heh.
Now Listening to: People just like us
By: Hillsongs
Practicing hard with it.
Gonna have another lesson tomorrow after cell, dunno what we're gonna learn.
Finding it hard to keep glued to my computer... it's become boring.
I don't feel the lure of computer games anymore.
Getting old? Maybe its just the long pants... heh.
Now Listening to: People just like us
By: Hillsongs
Monday, January 03, 2005
Tsunami
All around me are familiar faces, worn out places, worn out faces
Bright and early for the daily races
Going nowhere, going nowhere
The tears are filling up their glasses
No expression, no expression
Hide my head I want to drown my sorrow
No tomorrow, no tomorrow
And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles its a very very
Mad World
Mad World
Children waiting for the day they feel good
Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday
And they feel the way that every child should
Sit and listen
Sit and listen
Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me
No one knew me
Hello teacher tell me whats my lesson
Look right through me
Look right through me
And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles its a very very
Mad World
Mad World
Was on a bus travelling with the youths towards suntec city, when I happened to see the devastation done by the tsunami on a documentary. I knew how bad the situation was; the statistics didn't lie. It just struck me that, hey, this isn't just some silly tsunami that you study in textbooks; It is as real as it gets. Lives are literally torn apart.
To those struggling in the flood, all they could think of was the safety of their family, and that they were going to die. I felt alot of these feeligns when I heard the song you are listening to right now. Its really a sad and solemn piece of music.
The tears are filling up their glasses
No expression, no expression
Hide my head I want to drown my sorrow
No tomorrow, no tomorrow
Its funny how we always work for fame fortune wealth and power; Yet we as human beings are so fragile. All your acheievments surely will no longer matter the split second before the tsunami sweeps you away.
The tsunami has taught me a personal lesson not to dwell on worldy possessions, and that all that matters is... Him. All I can do now is pray for those victims.
Shalom. Peace.
Now Listening to: Mad World
By: Gary Jules
Bright and early for the daily races
Going nowhere, going nowhere
The tears are filling up their glasses
No expression, no expression
Hide my head I want to drown my sorrow
No tomorrow, no tomorrow
And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles its a very very
Mad World
Mad World
Children waiting for the day they feel good
Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday
And they feel the way that every child should
Sit and listen
Sit and listen
Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me
No one knew me
Hello teacher tell me whats my lesson
Look right through me
Look right through me
And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles its a very very
Mad World
Mad World
Was on a bus travelling with the youths towards suntec city, when I happened to see the devastation done by the tsunami on a documentary. I knew how bad the situation was; the statistics didn't lie. It just struck me that, hey, this isn't just some silly tsunami that you study in textbooks; It is as real as it gets. Lives are literally torn apart.
To those struggling in the flood, all they could think of was the safety of their family, and that they were going to die. I felt alot of these feeligns when I heard the song you are listening to right now. Its really a sad and solemn piece of music.
The tears are filling up their glasses
No expression, no expression
Hide my head I want to drown my sorrow
No tomorrow, no tomorrow
Its funny how we always work for fame fortune wealth and power; Yet we as human beings are so fragile. All your acheievments surely will no longer matter the split second before the tsunami sweeps you away.
The tsunami has taught me a personal lesson not to dwell on worldy possessions, and that all that matters is... Him. All I can do now is pray for those victims.
Shalom. Peace.
Now Listening to: Mad World
By: Gary Jules
Sunday, January 02, 2005
Saturday, January 01, 2005
Wishlist
Albums to get for new year
Velvet Revolver - Contraband
U2 - How to dismantle an Atomic Bomb
Red Hot Chilli Peppers - Greatest Hits
Stuff to get for new year
More Shirts
Stationery
Bass guitar
Half-life 2
Update:
Drat.
Esther has already gone ahead of me to get U2.
Went to look for the other 2 albums, struggled abit on which to buy, but finally settled on RHCP. Struggling whether to get the U2 from her or buy.
Borrowing Half-life 2 from Ianrik... Yay. Lending me till his new com arrives.
Bass guitar no where near in sight. Perhaps borrow from Pinjun.
Getting stationery tomorrow.
Shirts not enough, but not that important.
Now Listening to: Universally speaking
By: Red Hot Chilli Peppers
Velvet Revolver - Contraband
U2 - How to dismantle an Atomic Bomb
Red Hot Chilli Peppers - Greatest Hits
Stuff to get for new year
More Shirts
Stationery
Bass guitar
Half-life 2
Update:
Drat.
Esther has already gone ahead of me to get U2.
Went to look for the other 2 albums, struggled abit on which to buy, but finally settled on RHCP. Struggling whether to get the U2 from her or buy.
Borrowing Half-life 2 from Ianrik... Yay. Lending me till his new com arrives.
Bass guitar no where near in sight. Perhaps borrow from Pinjun.
Getting stationery tomorrow.
Shirts not enough, but not that important.
Now Listening to: Universally speaking
By: Red Hot Chilli Peppers
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