Nothing

My life has become empty on weekdays.

I cannot understand why I can feel normal in school, but when I reach home I immdiately feel that emptiness and a sinking feeling in my stomach.

I just realised. Nothing to do.

Just stone in front of computer, which also is my study table.

Feels like a chore to chat with people, only chat to a handful of people that exceeds the usual 'eh got what hw.'

Been doing this for 3 years. Sick of it.

Surely I'm meant to do more than just stoning at the computer and doing homework after dinner, day in day out.

I just don't know what.

Now the only things that sustain me and keep me going is music and God. Without them my life is empty.

Nil.