Feeling frustrated right now. I wish everyday were spent with my church friends.

I guess as you grow up you gradually realise that its such a wonderful thing being able to worship and grow together.

Somehow or rather I don't feel that sense of closeness to my school mates like when I'm with my church friends, even though I spend 5/7 of my week with them. I find that my peers are too preoccupied with having fun, and its hard to strike up a serious conversation because you've been talking only cock with them for 3 1/2 years. In a culture where people are constantly joking around, its hard to show your true self, the sad, angry, disappointed, reflective self. I feel like I'm constantly wearing a mask to fit in to the accepted "behaviour" of an average-sec4-student-from-4K guy.

That's why I long to be with my church friends. Where I can be my real self. Or at least where its easier to.

I hate being in school, although I love my school.

I daydream of a time when there's no study, no work. A time when we just spend the rest of our time glorifying the Lord's name, worshipping and learning about him. And we wouldn't have to care about the bare necessities, like food and money and studies. Just focusing on Him. Everyday would be Sunday and we would all gather in praise and worship.

Kinda sounds like heaven, come to think of it.

But its time to get back to earth.

And study physics.

Now Listening to: Let it Rain
By: Keri Noble