It feels like I'm constantly trying to catch up with time these days. There's simply too little time to think; There will always be something that is due, or that needs attention, that prevents me from doing what I really want. Its not totally because of judo. Its just this period when everything seems to whiz past you and its all a blur.

Many things done, yet nothing memorable. It gets tiring, really.

I want to stop and look at the other side of the world, as my friend puts it. The side without all the fooling around, the lame jokes and the crapping around my friends. Sometimes I ask myself: "Is there anything else that holds my friendships together besides that?"

If you take all the jokes and crap away, what is left? What really holds us together?

Up to this day, I'm still searching for an answer...